Crippled

Another Poem wrote a month ago on tumblr

Crippled

This depression comes and goes

It’s crippling at the best

It moves up and down inside of me and creeps inside my spine and mind

Unable to control the emotion that controls my mind

I’m left in the abyss

Wanting nothing more but to suffocate

Suffocation to the max

Unable to comprehend happiness in the heart

I feel as though I’m lost this Abyss

Unable to take deep breaths to calm thy heart

I’m left in my solitude to swallow

1 pill 2 pill 3 pill 4

No antidepressant for me

So I’m left

One day at a time

1 days feels like an eternity

It comes and goes

Worry is not

The light resides in the heart

And something comes from nothingness

That light shines on the darkness

Carries your heart and spirit closer to God

Still I’m left in the Dank Darkness

The light resides in my heart

It begins to fade

And I’m left in the Darkness

To wallow in my worries

I spoke to the doctor a while ago and asked for an antidepressant

He declined my offer

So I’m left here in my depression

Unable to cope

But here I am writing

Writing my heart and emotion out

Wear my heart on my sleeve

And let those labels flow