There are times, way too many times, where my mental state plummets all the way down into one of those dark, black, empty, cold, lonely, desperate and irrational states, when I seriously start to consider the options I have to choose from in order to commit suicide.
A flash slide show my brain presents to me of methods to suicide includes jumping from a bridge, driving at high speed into an unmovable object, drowning, heading out into the forests unprepared, jumping in front of a bus, stabbing myself in a major organ, carbon monoxide inhalation, drinking a mixture of radiator fluid and juice, etc., etc., etc., and on and on.
None of these suicide methods I offer myself are very appealing. Me, if I were to suicide, I want a guaranteed quick, relatively painless death (no, no, no, no, no, I want a totally painless death). None of these methods guarantees a successful, pain-free suicide. Except suicide by cop.
In every option I have mentioned, including all the etceteras, suicide by cop is the only method that is fail-proof. Except, perhaps, a little, for the pain-free side effects.
This is the method I would choose.
Forcillo was very possibly being used as a method of suicide by Yatim.
I believe that this introduces a reasonable doubt and would result in a successful defence or, at worst, be considered as a mitigating factor in this case.
